A Love Letter..

Last night I was watching something and I saw all these people, white people specifically, and they were writing love letters to each other. The husbands who were in jail wrote to their wives who were also in jail because of a false testimony of children and well, its the Salem Witch Trials all over again.

Anyway, the way they wrote the letters were pretty nice, all decorative and all. But keep in mind this was back in the 1980s ish, however, I presume the "cutesy" trend still lives on in white lovers these days.

Their letters inspired me last night to write one of my own, and I believe it re-sparked my love and reason to love her. I believe it also reignited the more I think about her and because of her beauty. But as of now, I can't seem to pull out any passion, grawr, Need Inspiration!

Round 1///Dive to the Heart

Dear Lovely Victoria,

This letter is my reasonings, thoughts, and concerns that I have been carrying around.

I still don't know why I love you, why I stick around sometimes for you, but in the end, I don't know if its worth it. I get to see you after I stick around, but if your friends are there, I can't really do anything except feel weird and shun myself away. And if I finally get to see you alone(ish), I still can't do anything much, I can't even give you a hug, like at the night at the pageant. Am I too shy? Or have I become so nervous that I lost all reason?

I may have said that I was able to destroy my feelings for you several times but it keeps comin' back. I guess you can't really control or successfully destroy emotions 100% of the time. And also it has gotten worse ever since you "ostracized" me. I feel just weird now, especially when Josie is nearby, I guess it's because she hasn't officially ended the "ostracization" *sighs*.

I keep getting hurt when I am around you like seeing you talk to My or something. Jealousy much? bwahhaha I don't even know if you like me or not. So I guess all my reasoning is pointless huh. *big sigh* Why must I burden myself so for you? Well, It's because of Love<3 ^_^o

You are like a thorn on a lovely Rose, and I come at it.
And I pick at it and get hurt. And I keep coming back for more and it hurts me back more.
When will I ever learn? When can the pain stop?

Round 2///The Attempt

Dear Yuri *snickers*

You are a Libra,
A match for a Gemini.
A girl who I want to devote myself to,
A person I want to hold into my arms, and hug tightly
A woman I want to care for and kiss, alot,
There it is,
The Lovely Dancer
All in all
Her beauty is majestic
Her skills are oh-so-nice
A Rose, A Rose with thorns!
Is all I can describe, for it hurts me,
When my Heart is Opened
To Her,
For Her,
I bleed.

End.

Well, there goes my cheesiness :/

But the funny thing is that while writing this, I thought of God, and how I can muster feelings for her when I can't for God? Another truth is that If one opens his heart and mind to God, he will never be hurt in return, for God is Love.

Mathew 6:13 - "For Thine is the Kingdom, and the Power, and the Glory, for ever."