O Sleep!

Oh

Sleep dear, sleep dear, sleep dear...

oh

sleep dear sleep dear sleep dear..

O'er

The night wanes
The Great Dane...

He who hath not slept
may find insomnia inviting..
Drowsy debt
Lust a-biting...

The virgins and the cockles
will lose purity
at the stroke of midnight

Sinful haste
deliberately makes
Shorum Gorum
ejaculate paste...

poor madam..
her face is caked..

ohh look at all the icing..

Oh the things they do for love..

Ohh...The Things they do for love...

that phrase just explains ...nearly everything :O

how..immense..deep..powerful....you can go on forever with that topic! D:

..what a relief..?...

Build Character 2

I have forgotten to mention this from the earlier post, but there is something known as a "build character". Yes, it is a word/phrase I just made up. But a build character means that its "that form" or "ideal kind of character" such as Horatio being the "ideal character". Crap this is hard to explain...well people from all over the centuries have been writing stories and buildin' on top of each other and finding new and original creations.

There can only be so many characterizations for a character and so the plot has to be twisted and designated for a specific purpose, you know? Take for instance, genres. You will always have romances, mystery, conspiracy, and middle earth stories. They all need "something" to be that "genre". And well..most of the time it's the same thing. So in turn, throughout time, stories get retold, refined, and always points back to it's allusions.

And here are the build characters, and yes, they sound like titles or aliases. Cliches are also noted along with the character spectrum. Now which one will you pick?

The Great Hero/The Beowulf/The Superman/ The invincible/ The unbeatable/
The Joker/The Comedian/ The Jester/The one who can judge and speak the truth/
The Smart character/ The Brainiac/The Ace student
The Idiot/ The lovable character/ The main Character
The Heroine/ The Mistress
The Spy/ The Conspirator/ The man behind the scenes
The Boss/ The king pin/ Keysor soze/ The Mastermind/ The L
The Strong girl/
The supporting character/
The Explorer/ The seeker of truth/ The obsessed/ The one who is seeing the truth/ The one who Has seen the truth/ The great all seeing person/ The blind one/
The Id/Ego/Superego/ The whiny character/ The mentally crushed/ The psychopath
The Dark Knight/ The scapegoat/ The responsible one/ The justified one/
The strong willed/
The jumper/
The observer/
The Ideal/
The martyr/


That is it for now, whew.

Build Character, Then We'll Talk..

Characters, characters, characters...they are all around us. Characters could be like a Kanji, a Japanese character, a Chinese character, personality traits, motives, and more.

What I am talking about his what defines one's role. In every story, there are characters that plays a big role in the big plot arch and makes the story interesting with their actions, emotions, and irony. I love characters and plot archs with a twist.

These "characters" or "personae" go waaayyyy back. Back to the times when man started writing down although oral traditions were even older. Well, whatever was left surviving today was because of oral or written dialogues. But I digress.

The Bible is an example of one of the oldest text with characters; I won't go more into this because I have not learned Scriptures yet.

Another example would be the classics such as Greek Tragedies, Shakespeare's Hamlet, Dante's Divine Comedy, and many more. They are the basis of modern day literature if you asked me. Everything came from other things. Allusions to one another. For instance, those classics has reference to the Bible, and today's works, although they became classics, has allusions back to those ancient classics and the Bible as well. ( A side note: I heard Twilight is and will become an instant classic for all to read just like the ancients, I doubt it. It just really redefined fantasy and romance--wait, no what am I saying? It just uses the genre and plots to the max, okay I give up defending.)

As I said before I love characters and twisted plots especially ones that include philosophical, religious, conspirical, and original lessons, allusions, and the like. One can learn from characters because although some are based on pure thoery, or the "ideal character" that man should have qualities of.

Some characters I have noticed and like are:

Nick from Gatsby- He does not judge, he is merely an observer just like Horatio( hurray for cross reference) but his inaction compromises his morality.

Horatio from Hamlet - Who wouldn't love the "good" guy? He is loyal, humble, righteous, wise, and a witness to testimony. He may be doing what seems to be an evil conspiracy, but he is rightly justified in the end. This is the said "ideal" character critics claimed Shakespeare made.

The Joker from DARK KNIGHT- A psychopath. He fights for no one, not even for himself. He just wants to give a message; that even the highest and brightest can fall. He is pure evil, although his methods are precise, everyone loves his "laughable" side. And by laughable, why the hell are we laughing and admiring this bad ass who has no remorse, nor respect for life, and no love?

Hamlet from HAMLET- The "teenager" who never gotten over his angst of incest, lost of throne, and woman's frailties. A wise, talented young man who was always clamoring of revenge and yet delay until the finale.

Dante from Devil May Cry- A bad ass, stylish, witty, confident mature man who just began to make his own business in demonslaying. He takes life easily and makes things for himself while at the same time burying his past.

Rorschach from WATCHMEN- A psycopath since childhood became a bringer of justice. He does not compromise with criminals, especially those who took innocent lives away. He justifies his brutalities against criminals by denying his identity. That way, he uses a mask and was able to fight fire with fire; bringing down the cold hand of justice. His flaw was his stubborness and not being able to break his trust with the people about the "truth".

The Past

"Let the dead past bury it's dead" - the dead past
"Let the dead past bury it's dead past -me
"Burying memories is Man's way of surviving. But there are some things a Man should never forget."- Gendo Ikari

Man moves on by burying his past. Those quotes are quite interesting only to me because it is an allusion, an allusion to something only that I have been dealing with.

This also brings up another question. Can someone become like a dead past? Some current living being turned into a past that you left behind,a past that has yet to let go it's past.

What IS the past? Is it recent things, actions, and emotions being felt, observed, or acknowledged? Is it subjective? Do some people experience time differently? Yes? No? One can be engaged in an activity and forget themselves, and one can just wait the day out. Now tell me, who felt the biggest pain in that same amount of time? So does that mean time is defined in moments?

Every hour, minute, seconds, are really nothing but an event happening after another event. The event may be extreme in it's definition and causes the mind to lose track of time. A reference point is made one after the other, just as how you can tell things are moving. So suppose I move a cup across the table, did time passed? Did you felt bored? Was that quick? It was quick wasn't it?

There goes some poppin' thoughts...

Some Paradoxes..

If you are not weird, then you're weird.

I am liberally conservative.

I am one, but I am many.

Look up close and you see the outcomes as A, but look from afar and you see the outcomes as B, so what can this mean? -- Simpson's Paradox

Do not smoke said the smoker...

STAR testing

Testing in general, especially with multiple choice, can see where one stands. Is that true?

What if someone guesses correctly and they don't know it? Like when in doubt, go with "C". Who did made that rule anyway?

My Monitor!

Err, well it is actually my brother's >_>

but be it his, or be it mine, our 22 inch gateway monitor just fizzed out on my right as my friend sent an IM of fury believe it or not @_@

*sighs* now I have to DOWNGRADE from a 1680x1050 to a 1400x900 but its cool. Thank God.

I don't know what to do now :/

A Philosphical Note

As I was contemplating about relationships, I realized about Marriage and religion. All religion has marriage right? I don't know much since I am not a theologian, but if religion is for the greater "good" then surely everyone can get along even though they have disagreeing views. God let these things exist as a sure way to ensure free will. I will talk about "free will" later.

[This is a philosophical side note]

---It is a common for most girls. Most usually think that sex is the highest aspect of love, it isn't. This is why Marriage exists, to bind the man, well both partners together. Relationships that aren't true like Sam and Windy's are susceptible to separation and whatnot.(but then again, their form of love is in the EXTREMES~) This is why it is worth it more not to do it because of such..hormones and lust and hatred.

There is a lot more to a relationship and I am now starting to understand that because of Sylvia.

There is something..indescribable..something that has no lust..and something clean and pure in a relationship that is indeed "true".

*Sam and Windy's relationship is one of the most beautifulest I' have ever seen, they ARE in love, till death due them apart.

To the one who never forgives..

As I've made up my mind before, "To Best Friendship with Victoria", I will still be here for you.

I haven't given up on you yet, I haven't given up on being your side.

But now I see, I am here to help you recuperate, and to tell you that Martin wasn't worth it. Your "love" isn't recognized well by that...guy..

I hath comforted you the best I can although it was never physically. True, I did fell in love with you, but it was perhaps a psychological thing and I'm sure you don't see or feel the same back. I realized this when I was asking Jess to give me inspirations to write a love letter to you. While I was contemplating my reasons and poetics, I have decided that a relationship with you would be a daunting one. I mean, what the hell am I thinking?

Your feelings for Martin are still there. Since he IS your first, it is understandable. It will take time, I have waited but now I see your weakness even more clear. You just can't let go of the past, hell you never officially let go of my "mistake". Then you started talking to me again when your relationship with Martin was in turmoil, feh. I tried my best to help comfort and ended up falling again, but I am just wasting my time. Your grudge and stubbornness is an obstacle to your own self. I am here to finally end this. You will always be my closest friend or friend that is a "girl" however any step higher is not possible now.

I now, only want to help you move on.

Interesting quote..

I have just found this quote on Elizabeth's blog entry, and well, I too, came up with an interesting response. her blog

As you can see that is the quote [to the left].

My response was: "Man can Create, indeed. But Man can also Deny."

BAM! How cool was that? :P

Here's a second response: "A creator can destroy his own work, since man can create, he can destroy. Sometimes, the work man creates can destroy himself. Then the question is, why built it in the first place?" gahh..I ran out of ideas and syllogisms on that responds >_>

National Guard List...

Workouts/Plans:

Shadow Boxing, Burpies, Running, kicking, balance stance, stretching, hills, sprints, strides, push ups, sit ups, leg ups

DMV Permit and Test, read first.

Talk to recruiter soon either by this summer, during, or after 2 year college.

Transfer? Possibly to a UC or CSU

Focus:

Confidence, Strength, Courage, Style, Wit, and Public Speaking.

Move On

As I get teary-eyed, I can finally say that I can get to move on.

To hell with Josephine...

To best friendship with Victoria..

Free your burdens~ *.*

Military Ball 2009

The Military Ball 2009 @ the Holiday Inn was very successful, although it was a bit of a downgrade from last years. The downgrade was just because of funds and timing. This year we had our senior year and so all of us were mainly busy with "stuff". Last year's Military Ball was at the Silver Creek Country Club, and boy, were we fortunate to have 1) adaquate fundraising 2) discounts--I'm talkin about MAJOR discounts (Commander's discount, Service discount, and yeah) 3) and donations by organizations such as PTSA, Booster Club, and more!

Anywho, yeah this year Colorguard did worse, but it was much more hilarious this year. Thank you Albert and Jess! ;D (maybe Thuy too). It was so much fun! A pleasant evening with my date until she was "reclaimed" by her father, but it is natural for parents to worry about thier daughters. So I yield..one must be understanding.

*sighs* but it will be our last Military Ball, unless we get invites or have time to go :/

.skarbakka

I love his photos, he uses magic, and photoshop to get these good shots of himself in weird, death-defying positions to see how the human body reacts.

.....

I never thought I would post this so soon, but I am..hurt.

I guess the feelings really did died out, everytime ur stuckupness and annoying "domination" type of attitude comes up, it really gets to me, especially in an argument. Perhaps I am too nice and sensitive, I still havnet forgotten the last time.


"Whatever"

Hamlet's Horatio

English 4 Walia

4/21/09

Period 2

Hamlet’s Horatio

William Shakespeare’s Hamlet has a character that is claimed by literary criticism, to be “universally admired”. This “universally admired”character is a man named Horatio. To the extent of my knowledge, Horatio is Hamlet’s dear friend, who Hamlet confesses that he has great admiration for. Hamlet trusts Horatio out of everyone including his beloved Ophelia. Horatio is also a young scholar who is currently enrolled in a university somewhere in Germany. His origin is unknown, but now with what information of Horatio we have, Horatio can be “defined” and examined to see why he is “universally admired”.

So far I’ve stated that Horatio is a critically acclaimed young scholar character, probably in his twenties as does Hamlet. Horatio’s parents weren‘t even mentioned at all in the play. This must lead to the idea that he is not of the rich and maybe his parents are deceased. Horatio also is not in any way affiliated with the daily activities with Hamlet’s class, family, and royal court but only as Hamlet’s dear friend. His nature is quite easily to distinguish if one thinks deeply. He appeared several times in the play but it was at crucial moments such as the ghost appearance, the thrust and parry moments between Hamlet and Claudius, and of course, the climatic ending.

From the crucial moments (or every moment he appears actually) it is when we learn more of Horatio. He is always by Hamlet’s side and is willing to help conspire with Hamlet against Claudius, which is ironic because he is the “ideally good character”. Perhaps it is his scholarly way of searching for the real truth and having a preference for justice or reasonably, it is his love and friendship for Hamlet. One can argue, but I will go into detail later on. Horatio is also a man who goes by the teachings, and what has been known and real to him, which is why he didn’t believe in such things as ghosts. As Marcellus said “Horatio says 'tis but our fantasy And will not let belief take hold of him. Touching this dreaded sight twice seen of us. Therefore I have entreated him along With us to watch the minutes of this night, That if again this apparition come. He may approve our eyes and speak to it.”

Shakespeare’s Hamlet has the theme of what is and what isn’t. We can clearly see that in the beginning of Act 1 and in Horatio‘s character. Horatio keeps things real and yet logical at the same time. For instance, his prophetic deciphering after he saw the ghost. “A mote it is to trouble the mind's eye. In the most high and palmy state of Rome, A little ere the mightiest Julius fell, The graves stood tenantless and the sheeted dead 115 Did squeak and gibber in the Roman streets…And prologue to the omen coming on, Have heaven and earth together demonstrated. Unto our climatures and countrymen.” Which basically means that there is an omen and something has thrown off the state of things.

Every time Horatio appears, he serves as an observer, or a witness to something happening around the Danish castle. So we believe his function is of the ever observing character, although he may had done some things such as conspiring, but his fate, at the end, was to carry on the truth of Hamlet’s tragedy and a message for Fortinbras. In other words, he is like the scop, living only to tell and witness the next story of such tragedies.

Perhaps the reason as to why he is universally admired is because of his ethics, personality, and humbleness. Horatio is unlike Hamlet since he keeps to himself all his suffering and pains, meanwhile Hamlet goes off like an angst teenager against the world. Maybe this is why Hamlet admires him so. His scholarly ethics enables him not to judge so quickly and if he judges, it has to be within reason. And since he is humble and out of the worldly affairs, he does not need to be burden with such problems. He is, after all, the “ideal” character.

Formality, Gentleman!

Here's a thought, I wonder where are the formalities and manners of the young generation nowadays. In rich sectors, you can see it because of the rich old grown ups, take for instance 5 star restaurants/hotels. Meanwhile the poor, they are more casual and lighthearted. And then there's the gangsters...need I say more?

A poem I just made up:

Formality, Gentlemen, Formality.
You shall treat your date
with the utmost respect
with courtesy
and with passion
and maybe some love~ ;)

You shall stand when she stands
and pull out the chair
You will mind your manners, no one eats or sits before all is at the table

Complements to your date about your date is a worthy praise
Ignorance and Negligence will lead to your dismay
and lost of reputation, plus
a ruin of a dear girl's night

Alcohol will be consumed if the lady lets.
DO NOT CHUG into the next day

Dancing should be fluid, with your partner mostly
DO NOT step on her feet, if so, apologize when needed

But above all, Have fun ;D

Sitting..

Good grief. This morning I was watching the FOXNEWS channel and came across an interesting study report. The study report was about "sitting" and how it can kill you. They say people who sit a lot has a higher chance of dying and even though they may work out or exercise it still won't help much. What a drag I thought.

And then it hit me, what a drag it really is! I mean c'mon give us a break! Everyday we either go to school, or the office and sit down for like eight hours. Then we have to go home in a car not to mention if you drove to there in the first place! And then when you go home, you sit on your ass watching T.V. and resting.

Now that I think about it, sitting and laying down is all about what humans can and usually do. I mean, really, think about it. We spend our lives sitting or standing or laying. Our "hides" are just a bunch flesh laying on something we created, such as a chair, or a bed. We have legs, and yet we don't use it often but for walking, walking a "short" distance.


*sighs* This is harder to describe than you think. It is just soo fascinating to see what all humans actually do a majority of the time and that includes sleeping.

A side note: I have found a nifty link talking about how to sit right.



Quote of the Day.. "Oh, Shiteth.."

Formal Wear

I need a new vest and tie, the only problem is, I don't know what style and color to get. I need to ask my date to see what we should wear. I might need a new dress shirt as well. Need something stylish, coat not needed I guess.

I'm thinkin' of like vanilla, peach, orange, amber orange glow ish color for my outfit and I still have to see if I can match with my date's preferences.

Already have: 2 dress shirts white/purple, rotc shoes, and rotc pants and silky formal pants.

No Corsages or Boutonniere needed...those are for couples mostly.

Dates to remember:

April 25th
Silver Creek Military Ball @ Silicon Valley Holiday Inn
399 Silicon Valley Blvd. 95138

May 2nd
Silver Creek Senior Ball @ Coconut Grove
Somewhere in Santa Cruz

BTW, today I have had two people talking to me/ mentioning to me about getting girlfriends and such. Like why am I depressed, or why am I weird, and I should get a girlfriend. An interesting thing came up though, one of them asked why I am not looking for girlfriends. I realized.. it is an answer I can't seem to simply answer, what was my reason again... :/

-Edit- Apparently my date for the military ball answered it for me, quite well actually ;D
And the answer is...Education, although there may be reason such as love and relationships take time, and that I am not like those freshman that "rushed" or so.

Where's My Master..

[This is an excerpt of a lost apprentice who finds himself in a dark marble room.]

*Blindly scuffling through the dark on hands and knees*

"Where's my master?..

Where's my master...Where is he?

I-I don't know....Ohh! When did he disappear!? *gasp*

What have I done!? *sobs in the dark momentarily*

........

*feels a face on the floor*

ohh...What is this? A face? no, yes--wait, ah yes....face..

*gets startled and drops back* Gahh!!! Ahhhh!!!!! Wh-Wha-WHAT IS THIS!?

..ah...yes.. *starts feeling again* this face...this face....this face...so familiar...as if... I know this skin; skin and skull!

*feels around body*

---------

End

Look! Here!

I should make an entry series about interesting things that I deem worthy for other "intellectuals" to read, especially of those who have more or the same interests as I do.

I was looking for M.C. Escher's work when I bumped into this

http://www.pep-web.org/document.php?id=IFP.009.0007A

There's an excerpt from there that reminds me about Ayn Rand, Roark, and that one Architecture Garfield or so, I had forgotten the name. But either way it is quite true especially for all architectures and for those who knows "true" art.

"Stairwars of the Mind" by Juhani Pallasmaa Ph.D.

"Our materialist culture has turned buildings into objects of utility devoid of any mytho-poetic content. However, in addition to providing physical shelter, buildings should also house our souls, memories and dreams. Like all art, architecture expresses the human existential condition, and our lived space and mind define each other reciprocally. Architecture addresses the body and is experienced multi-sensorily. Fundamental architectural experiences are encounters that appear as verbs rather than nouns. One of the most potent images of architecture is the stair, which possesses a wealth of metaphoric and symbolic connotations. The stair is the symbolic spine of the house, whereas ascending a stair in dream-imagery signifies copulation. The qualitative differences of ascending and descending derive from the images of Heaven and Hell. Stairs appear frequently in literature, cinema and painting due to their extraordinary image power. The staircase is simultaneously a stage and an auditorium. It is also a vertical configuration of the labyrinth with consequent associations of vertigo, and getting lost. Our human reality has become threateningly concrete and one-dimensional as the environment has lost its symbolic dimension. One of the most demanding tasks of architects today is to re-mythologize and re-poetisize the built environment. Is it feasible that stairs would again come to express the existence of Heaven and Hell?"

Btw, I have to research more about M.C. Esher's work to talk about it but feel free to visit this link http://members.lycos.nl/amazingart/E/artist7.html to see his magnifent optical illusions!
and of course this: http://www.mcescher.com/

How I Write..

I usually write things off the top of my head, and so it may be difficult for me to organize my thoughts and grammar, not to mention that I always have these thoughts, or sentence fragments that I MUST write down otherwise I will forget and possibly lose that precious thought to oblivion.

Believe me, I have had thoughts and phrases inside my head which makes no sense when I came back to it. However some thoughts DO come back, and for that, I am glad. These "thoughts" I have are really interesting "figured-it-out", "theories","stories", "plans", or "food-for-thought" things.

This is why I have a blog. I write whatever comes to mind everyday after school or whenever I feel like I should otherwise go paper n' pen, or just dismiss the thought.

As you can see, I've written over countless of blogs already and its been about a month that I had a blog. I would have a lot more entries if I had started sooner-- Look at my Notes, there's writing EVERYWHERE!-- I guess the problem is of "thoughts" being translated into "Language" just as what Tim-err T-Man stated in his own blog. I think quite fast; jumping the gun you know?

Another thing that occurred to me is that I am glad my Blog, Thogger, is having some kind of impact. My friend(s) got motivated to make one of their own and be like me and all. Thogger also captivated some people as well. I now a few avid readers who actually take interest in my blogs, and well, it makes me feel good, as there is finally a meaning to be noticed with my mind/voice.
It just proves that lately Blogs ARE changing the world, one interesting thought at a time.

They say that "Thoughts are the Opium of the Masses"--wait no that is note right. Well, what I meant was along the lines of "thoughts being a dangerous thing, since it can overthrow a head of state and such" you know?

Thank You For Reading ;)

Lorem Ipsum?

Interesting thing I found, could be of good use..

http://www.lipsum.com/

"But I must explain to you how all this mistaken idea of denouncing pleasure and praising pain was born and I will give you a complete account of the system, and expound the actual teachings of the great explorer of the truth, the master-builder of human happiness. No one rejects, dislikes, or avoids pleasure itself, because it is pleasure, but because those who do not know how to pursue pleasure rationally encounter consequences that are extremely painful. Nor again is there anyone who loves or pursues or desires to obtain pain of itself, because it is pain, but because occasionally circumstances occur in which toil and pain can procure him some great pleasure. To take a trivial example, which of us ever undertakes laborious physical exercise, except to obtain some advantage from it? But who has any right to find fault with a man who chooses to enjoy a pleasure that has no annoying consequences, or one who avoids a pain that produces no resultant pleasure?"

"On the other hand, we denounce with righteous indignation and dislike men who are so beguiled and demoralized by the charms of pleasure of the moment, so blinded by desire, that they cannot foresee the pain and trouble that are bound to ensue; and equal blame belongs to those who fail in their duty through weakness of will, which is the same as saying through shrinking from toil and pain. These cases are perfectly simple and easy to distinguish. In a free hour, when our power of choice is untrammelled and when nothing prevents our being able to do what we like best, every pleasure is to be welcomed and every pain avoided. But in certain circumstances and owing to the claims of duty or the obligations of business it will frequently occur that pleasures have to be repudiated and annoyances accepted. The wise man therefore always holds in these matters to this principle of selection: he rejects pleasures to secure other greater pleasures, or else he endures pains to avoid worse pains."

Hold Out..

Take my hand and take the wine and fly

Hold out your hand..
Take me with you..
We aren't going to fall..no
Not This Time..
Not gonna lose to this reality..
Not gonna suffer no more
Not gonna
Not gonna
Not gonna Willy,
Not gonna..

This was more inspired from a song i was listening and another song that i was thinkin' of. "Kiri" from Ergo Proxy the philosophical/psychological/science fiction fantasy anime.

Ergo Proxy Lyrics

"Ergo Proxy Kiri lyrics"

You complete my fate
The world unwinds inside of me
You complete my fate
The halo crawls away
You repeat my fate
Rewinding all we can
You refill my place
You refill my place
Come and save me
Come and save me

You complete my fate
The heavens stroll inside of me
You repeat my fate
Revealing who we are
You refill my place
You refill my place
Come and save me
Come and save me

Believe in me
Drink the wine
Take my hand
Fill me up
Believe in me
Drink the wine
Take my hand
Let me follow

Reasons Why You Should Get A Blog

I am making this entry because I have friends, or people asking my why should they make a blog when they already have "Facebook" or "Myspace" or "Xanga" when I ask/recommend/suggest them to. Ironically, I have all 3 starting from xanga to facebook. But anyway, it has become a nuisance when I have stubborn people defying my suggestion with thier declinations, or sheer laziness! Oh the fools! They have no idea how great it is to keep a journal, book, notes, or blog!

One can express themselves through writing, releive stress through organizing thoughts, and make an admirable achievement. Like me, I have a knack now for staring back at my entries. It's just so cool and aweing to have written soo much thoughts, text, and ideas!

Reason #1- Blogging, whether on here or other blog sites, is completely you, all you, your thoughts, ideas, whatever.

Reason #2- Blogsites are different from Social Networking Sites such as Facebook, Myspace, TAG, etc.

Reason #3- It helps clear your mind, organize thoughts and ideas, and express your emotions/problems.

Reason #4- It gives you something to do-- you need a hobby.

Reason #5- It helps you develop writing skills, get inspirations especially from your fellow writers who write well.

Reason #6- I demand more followers.

Reason #7- I want to see your creation, or work, and styles; you do too.

Reason #8- It makes you look intelligent AND makes you intelligent at the same time!

Reason #9- Proof that your brain still works and that you aren't some hollow fsck.

Reason #10-[by J.S.]- Makes you more comfortable with sharing, and sharing is caring.

Reason #11-

In Four Years..

In Four Years...

I will have blogged over a hundred entries about my life, philosophy, thoughts, and policies. But as you all know or heard, 2012 is coming, and well they say its the end of the world. Well are you going to believe that? or in God? It may as well be the changing of the Earth's magnetic poles. When this happens, the magnetic field will erupt and change, possibly destroying every fragile electronic thing in sight and maybe stopping heartbeats. The CPU's will be destroyed, along with your Hard Disk Drives and our informational networks/society.

and here's the funny thing, if that is true, then wouldnt it be pointless to buy HDD and any other electronic? Hell, why am I writing in here? All I wrote, all my goals I've made to be in here, will be erased and never read by anyone. And yet, Here I am...still writing..

It could also be like ancient civilizations. They have some leftover ruins for us to figure out and etc. Or it could be like old seniors, who have collected a lot of wisdom, which is of great use to us young'uns, and information, such as a secret project and aliens.

Heres a thought..

Here's a thought, or some thoughts :

If you see a small land mass sticking out of the water, it is a mountain, waiting to rise to the highest heights.

If you see an iceberg, well then it should be the same concept as a hidden giant.

The problem these days are actually religion and politics/liberal interests. People keep thinking its Conservationism/Republicans and Liberalism/Democrats. But its not, its more of Traditional/Religious stuff versus the more modern, innovative, liberal, young generation.
Hell, even the Conservatives are fighting amongst themselves on their own interpretations. Conservatives believe in the individual choice..and well..this leads to a problem of basically religion, and fundamentals, you know?

Poems 1

This shall be my first attempt at something.

Winds, water, and heart's delight
With Pollution, there will only be blight.
Only solution,
end the pollution.
The problem comes from Humans
from man, from homo sapiens

The wind is crying, foul!
even Harry Potter's Owl!
The water, it is stained..
We can't even begin to feel its pain

A Love Letter..

Last night I was watching something and I saw all these people, white people specifically, and they were writing love letters to each other. The husbands who were in jail wrote to their wives who were also in jail because of a false testimony of children and well, its the Salem Witch Trials all over again.

Anyway, the way they wrote the letters were pretty nice, all decorative and all. But keep in mind this was back in the 1980s ish, however, I presume the "cutesy" trend still lives on in white lovers these days.

Their letters inspired me last night to write one of my own, and I believe it re-sparked my love and reason to love her. I believe it also reignited the more I think about her and because of her beauty. But as of now, I can't seem to pull out any passion, grawr, Need Inspiration!

Round 1///Dive to the Heart

Dear Lovely Victoria,

This letter is my reasonings, thoughts, and concerns that I have been carrying around.

I still don't know why I love you, why I stick around sometimes for you, but in the end, I don't know if its worth it. I get to see you after I stick around, but if your friends are there, I can't really do anything except feel weird and shun myself away. And if I finally get to see you alone(ish), I still can't do anything much, I can't even give you a hug, like at the night at the pageant. Am I too shy? Or have I become so nervous that I lost all reason?

I may have said that I was able to destroy my feelings for you several times but it keeps comin' back. I guess you can't really control or successfully destroy emotions 100% of the time. And also it has gotten worse ever since you "ostracized" me. I feel just weird now, especially when Josie is nearby, I guess it's because she hasn't officially ended the "ostracization" *sighs*.

I keep getting hurt when I am around you like seeing you talk to My or something. Jealousy much? bwahhaha I don't even know if you like me or not. So I guess all my reasoning is pointless huh. *big sigh* Why must I burden myself so for you? Well, It's because of Love<3 ^_^o

You are like a thorn on a lovely Rose, and I come at it.
And I pick at it and get hurt. And I keep coming back for more and it hurts me back more.
When will I ever learn? When can the pain stop?

Round 2///The Attempt

Dear Yuri *snickers*

You are a Libra,
A match for a Gemini.
A girl who I want to devote myself to,
A person I want to hold into my arms, and hug tightly
A woman I want to care for and kiss, alot,
There it is,
The Lovely Dancer
All in all
Her beauty is majestic
Her skills are oh-so-nice
A Rose, A Rose with thorns!
Is all I can describe, for it hurts me,
When my Heart is Opened
To Her,
For Her,
I bleed.

End.

Well, there goes my cheesiness :/

But the funny thing is that while writing this, I thought of God, and how I can muster feelings for her when I can't for God? Another truth is that If one opens his heart and mind to God, he will never be hurt in return, for God is Love.

Mathew 6:13 - "For Thine is the Kingdom, and the Power, and the Glory, for ever."

Pandora

Ahh, I've been listening to http://pandora.com/ internet radio. It really is quite nice. The Music Genome Project that it has been trying to accomplish is the real deal. The Project matches with your interests and play songs accordin' to, well, for me, my mood. That is to say it creates a station depending on what you are searching for.

I have created several stations so far: Yoko Kanno, Linkin Park, Jimmy Eat World, and Nine in the Afternoon. In fact, it is free to create an account of your own, which is a better choice because it can "grow" on you. The Project is meant to adapt to your listening pleasures really.

Stasis..

Relationships only work when the "human" factor is involved. Whether how much you love someone...hey wait a minute...what am i talking about. This can't be applied to all...well in this case I am talking about couples or trying to get the heart of someone. Okay, where was I.. ah yes..

All in all, I find myself doing things now without any reason. I took AP classes, paid for the AP tests, and now I am going to suffer while taking it, but hey its expected for AP students right? Well, I guess it counts for college credit now, that's the only point I see because I am going to a community college and then transferring.

Another thing is what I was talkin' about earlier, relationships. I used to really like this one girl, and well I spent every time I have online with her when shes on, but as of late, things happened. There was also a moment when she ostracized me, perhaps this is what led to my mixed feelings. And pretty soon, I can't really talk to her in public or in person much, which is the physical aspect. Physical aspects are what's needed in order to have a good relationship. I have been striving to do things for her, and at there were things at stake too. Now that that has been thought of, is this really worth it? I have so many questions. Why did I do things for her? Why did I liked her in the first place? Does she like me back at all? Why is she my only closest friend? Why are we so alike in the mind and yet we are silent in public?

An example of this would be me paying 25 dollars for a ticket to a seat at a formal place with a bunch of unknown Chinese people, powerful people, and a bouncer whom I took it personal to go see her pageant. I was really supportive. I gave Mom and Jeffrey grief just for this event. I soon got to see her, couldn't hug her. Couldn't talk much. Went home. It was a cold night. During the whole time, I was thinking of lost reason because I think I've lost reason startin' with APs and now my feelings for her. *sighs* oh well...

There is something at stake and I won't know much until I either go for her, or go into stasis and live life, meet new people, learn new things, and setting discipline for myself.

So this is how you really care?

I'm just sayin' that if you really cared or wondered and when you get online, at least ask why I didn't go to a "review" session. Or maybe is it because you thought I had something better to do, which is an assumption (which is known to make asses out of you and me), and you didn't need to. Either that or you were just busy with yourselves and yeah...but really telling me that its an individual responsibility was not cool even though its true, I can say that you are also responsible for me but thats just for fun. What I'm really saying or my "fcking point" as Albert always try to ask, is that...I can see your true self, emotions, and weakness.

Sure, I may talk as if I am of higher status or something, but it's just how humans are if one really thinks.

Finally!

My friend finally made his blog, and well..it took quite awhile. He takes FOREVER getting things done, but I suppose it's because of his ever swaying interests. He is like a Leonardo Da Vinci, always going about and doing "art". hmm a bit like me as well.

But anywho, he finally blogged, made a URL, and decorated his site, however, he still needs to get a FSCKING PICTURE. Jagdeep! Do you hear me!?

BTW his blog is intellectually interesting, perhaps on par with Tim's...

Linky----> http://skaiii.blogspot.com/

Random Skit..

"Give me...More Power..."

"No."

"Don't you see? The person with the most power wins. And I intend to win, if I am to save this world. Why can't you trust me!?"

"It is because of your methods."

"My methods?"

"There is a borderline of which I'm not to sure of anymore, that is, how can this be possible? How far is too far? This just simply boggles with my ethics! Your act was very brutal,savage, cruel, and indecent. Yet it was for a cause that you say was for the greater good! In fact it can be deemed as a good cause, but at what price? How far will you go to save many lives and destroy loved ones, friends, family, and innocents?"

"....."

"Well!?"

"..well...killing millions to save billions...and ending a cold war between two super powers, not to mention it will unite humanity against a newer enemy. They will become brothers and sisters again fighting my scapegoat! This is the ideal plan from the start, yes it was cruel and costly, but it is as you said yourself..will this work? How far can one really go? Is this price affordable and reasonable? Well I'll tell you..see for yourself if humanity will come hand in hand and fight a bigger threat then them all. They have both suffered extreme losses, I don't think they can go on with the Cold War at this rate. Therefore they will now bond as a couple first starting out would."

"..This is madness...and yet...I can't quite condemn you..."

"So be it, I have finished my duties, and repentance for my arbitrary race...let this stand."

The Hollow Men

I know I've been talking quite quite a lot about Joseph Conrad's "Heart of Darkness"'s theme ever since watching WATCHMEN. Well, it IS fascinating, thanks to my English teacher Ms. Walia, I've actually gotten interested in literature now. To study the fine arts and find it's symbolism, characteristics and plot arcs is just simply amazing...

Anywho from what Ms. Walia told me, from "Heart of Darkness" came out "The Hollow Men" by T.S. Eliot. And from that poem came out the song " Sound of Silence" by Simon and Garfunkel. They basically stole from each other but the idea still leaves a lasting impression, especially for me. *grins*

Arrgh! There's soo much more I can add to this!! >< Okay, so, from what I've learned and was told, was that the theme is of savagery. Humans, in nature, are savages. When they go deep inside their own heart, they become more primal with their uncivilized selves. Then they have a choice, to fear it, deny it, or judge it and say something about it. That's what's wrong with the world; there are those who see and can openly judge it, and those who just keep to themselves with their "work". Working, is what saves man from being insane. Odd how it focuses our attention away from the REAL problem, or TRUTH. But also ironically what if your work IS the truth and you can't get away from it? Will you become mad like Kurtz or will you become like the Comedian or the Joker and fuck the world? Those characters are the characters who have been to the edge and found the true meaning of existentialism and whatnot. They have something to say, they have something to do, they say it, they do it. It is the Passion that they have and that we lack even though most of us say we are "motivated" or "planning" to do so. Take Hamlet for instance, why the fuck!? he didn't do what he said what he would do in the begining when he had all the liberty in the world only to delay and be a hypocrite?

hell, even I'm procrastinating right now! I wanted to work out, or do my homework, but look! I'm just writing out all this! Oh well, tis' better to do when one has an inspiration, a passion, and an important thought rather than make a mental note and forget, maybe even forever..

...and here..we..go!

The Hollow Men

T. S. Eliot

Mistah Kurtz—he dead.

 A penny for the Old Guy

 I

We are the hollow men
We are the stuffed men
Leaning together
Headpiece filled with straw. Alas!
Our dried voices, when
We whisper together
Are quiet and meaningless
As wind in dry grass
Or rats’ feet over broken glass
In our dry cellar

Shape without form, shade without colour,
Paralysed force, gesture without motion;

Those who have crossed
With direct eyes, to death’s other Kingdom
Remember us—if at all—not as lost
Violent souls, but only
As the hollow men
The stuffed men.

 II

Eyes I dare not meet in dreams
In death’s dream kingdom
These do not appear:
There, the eyes are
Sunlight on a broken column
There, is a tree swinging
And voices are
In the wind’s singing
More distant and more solemn
Than a fading star.

Let me be no nearer
In death’s dream kingdom
Let me also wear
Such deliberate disguises
Rat’s coat, crowskin, crossed staves
In a field
Behaving as the wind behaves
No nearer—

Not that final meeting
In the twilight kingdom

 III

This is the dead land
This is cactus land
Here the stone images
Are raised, here they receive
The supplication of a dead man’s hand
Under the twinkle of a fading star.

Is it like this
In death’s other kingdom
Waking alone
At the hour when we are
Trembling with tenderness
Lips that would kiss
Form prayers to broken stone.

 IV

The eyes are not here
There are no eyes here
In this valley of dying stars
In this hollow valley
This broken jaw of our lost kingdoms

In this last of meeting places
We grope together
And avoid speech
Gathered on this beach of the tumid river

Sightless, unless
The eyes reappear
As the perpetual star
Multifoliate rose
Of death’s twilight kingdom
The hope only
Of empty men.

 V

Here we go round the prickly pear
Prickly pear prickly pear
Here we go round the prickly pear
At five o’clock in the morning.

Between the idea
And the reality
Between the motion
And the act
Falls the Shadow
                           For Thine is the Kingdom

Between the conception
And the creation
Between the emotion
And the response
Falls the Shadow
                           Life is very long

Between the desire
And the spasm
Between the potency
And the existence
Between the essence
And the descent
Falls the Shadow
                           For Thine is the Kingdom

For Thine is
Life is
For Thine is the

This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
Not with a bang but a whimper.


source:http://poetry.poetryx.com/poems/784/

It's like a Dream...

Lately, [life] it has been like a dream..for everyone, including me.

Everything seems to be surreal and yet real enough to be acknowledged as life itself. Things happen and we accept it and move on with our work without really looking back. That's the problem with work, we never get to pay attention to the greater meaning, micro or macro, although it saves us from the insanity of inhuman objects.

A couple have been formed with the most outrageous characteristics, one would never expect until one can see the chemistry, and they both have a lot to learn ;).

Events unfold near the end of the year at a rapid rate, causing conflicts, or an even bigger and busier schedule to either enjoy or be annoyed. The main nuisance would be the Costs, you see. Senior year is oh so very expensive. So far the expenses are Military Ball and the pictures, Senior Prom and the pictures, stoles, shirts, and Senior Events. It's amazing how much I'm already spending!

bleh to be continued.

Recap! March Madness

Wow, they seriously weren't kiddin' when they named this month " March Madness" or "March something". Hella shit happened; academic wise, economic wise, relationship wise, philosophical wise, and just about anything else I have witnessed, seen, heard, learned, or not.

Well, first off, I would like to state that I LOVE Blogging now!<3 If there is any problem, thought, or whatnot, I write it down although I may not remember it and so I have to suffice with something else..but that's a side thought--onward to the preferred entries I have written for March!

So far I have been quite astonished with my works, be it bad or good, and I think I'll choose the best ones straight out from March. You should take a look at the entry: "I Smile...", "Drama Drama..", "Humans are Dumb..", and "Infidelity Part 1...". Those are recommended since they are my "finer" works in my humble opinion.

<--- For quick reference...Fear Not! Use my side bar Blog archives on the side to find my blog entries!


Academically, things were tough since I slacked off my Japanese and Statistics class. Senioritis anyone? Everything else was mostly alright and good to go. However, the Advanced Placement Tests are comin' up and well...MASSIVE STUDYING for Finals...good grief now that I think about it, why am I taking the AP tests, not to mention an AP course? Oh, right, I FINALLY made a decision or GOT a decision. And then there's Mr. Marr's Multiple Econ test for those non-AP test takers..

Our Economy, DOW is at its lowest..in under just 8000....they say that we are in a depression or truely in a recession if it hits under that mark..well it just did. And Mass Hysteria is making this worse. Geez people, I'm pretty sure if you guys stopped ignoring( or actually this might not be a good idea) and stay positive and dont freak out, all our spirits and the DOW will go up, if not, at all. The foreclosure was the first problem and well, look at what else we got; 600K+ layoffs, higher taxes ( What the Fsck are you guys thinkin?! WE JUST GOT THE SPENDULOUS PACKAGE!!), education especially in the state of California), and much more that I don't know about.

Meanwhile some of my "dear" friends got together, and what a couple to boot! >;] Who would have thought? Well, they still have some more "heart touching" moments to do..soo I'll let them be... Meanwhile again, prom(s), and stuff/events that involve couples are making singles (especially the girls) feel bad and lonely. It's okay, I understand, but we must take time into consideration. In other words, DONT FSCKIN' RUSH INTO A RELATIONSHIP LIKE THESE FRESHMEN I KNOW!! :)