Fsck, No! Fuck!

Guess what? From the depths of another philosophical discussion, arises truth...

ffrookie6 (11:26:48 PM): soo tim

ffrookie6 (11:26:51 PM): how are you gonna fsck the world

LuciferAkira (11:27:10 PM): Jackhammer

LuciferAkira (11:27:15 PM): no wait

ffrookie6 (11:27:17 PM): startin from ?

LuciferAkira (11:27:19 PM): Jackhammer dildo

ffrookie6 (11:27:26 PM): why not use ur own dick x.x

ffrookie6 (11:27:33 PM): oh and where are u gonna start to "drioll"

LuciferAkira (11:27:35 PM): nonono

LuciferAkira (11:27:45 PM): I'm going to become a cyborg

LuciferAkira (11:27:51 PM): and THEN get a jackhammer dick

LuciferAkira (11:28:05 PM): btw

LuciferAkira (11:28:07 PM): say FUCK

ffrookie6 (11:29:11 PM): LOL

ffrookie6 (11:29:14 PM): why xD

LuciferAkira (11:29:51 PM): Because "FSCK" is stupid.

ffrookie6 (11:31:15 PM): why :O

ffrookie6 (11:31:34 PM): well why censorship is stupid?

ffrookie6 (11:31:43 PM): well me censoring

ffrookie6 (11:31:44 PM): x.x

LuciferAkira (11:33:00 PM): FSCK is stupid because it does not have the same impact on people as the word FUCK.

ffrookie6 (11:33:56 PM): hmm

ffrookie6 (11:34:01 PM): true

ffrookie6 (11:34:28 PM): ever tried saying FUCK! 5 times?

LuciferAkira (11:34:46 PM): When someone deliberately censors himself online with shit like F*ck, they're half-assing the quality of their writing and come across as childish than threatening

LuciferAkira (11:35:02 PM): Yeah, I do it all the time in COD4.

ffrookie6 (11:35:39 PM): lol

ffrookie6 (11:35:42 PM): dang tim

ffrookie6 (11:35:44 PM): soo you're saying

ffrookie6 (11:35:50 PM): i should just be explicit with my work

ffrookie6 (11:35:59 PM): as it was intended to be

ffrookie6 (11:36:12 PM): erm writing

LuciferAkira (11:36:25 PM): Uh, yeah. Don't pussyfoot.

ffrookie6 (11:37:39 PM): hmm

ffrookie6 (11:37:42 PM): alright

ffrookie6 (11:37:47 PM): but what if someone finds it offensive?

LuciferAkira (11:39:11 PM): Fuck 'em. It's just a word. Besides if you're honest enough then it'd be easier to correct yourself when you think you've made a mistake.

ffrookie6 (11:39:50 PM): ohh?

LuciferAkira (11:41:22 PM): The white man who gets his ass beaten by a bunch of black dudes for yelling "nigger" will learn more than the white kid who softens it with stupid shit like "nukka".

LuciferAkira (11:41:46 PM): Besides, it's context that matters.

ffrookie6 (11:42:30 PM): LOL

ffrookie6 (11:42:31 PM): wow

ffrookie6 (11:42:31 PM): well

ffrookie6 (11:42:35 PM): what if someone

ffrookie6 (11:42:36 PM): passin by

ffrookie6 (11:42:42 PM): who is very "sensitive"

ffrookie6 (11:42:48 PM): and then condemns me

LuciferAkira (11:42:49 PM): Fuck 'em

ffrookie6 (11:42:50 PM): for bein

ffrookie6 (11:42:52 PM): insensitive

ffrookie6 (11:43:02 PM): and then I get villainfied

ffrookie6 (11:43:06 PM): or something

LuciferAkira (11:46:07 PM): Fuck 'em. If you feel bad, then say sorry and try to make up for it. Otherwise, forget 'em if they can't accept your apologies because they've made it their issue now and you can't do shit to change that. Honesty will always get the clearer picture than tactfulness and passive-aggressive bullshitting.

ffrookie6 (11:46:52 PM): ahahaha

ffrookie6 (11:46:57 PM): i'm chuckling

ffrookie6 (11:47:01 PM): right on tim

ffrookie6 (11:47:05 PM): xD

ffrookie6 (11:47:20 PM): you've translated this into words quite well

ffrookie6 (11:47:29 PM): i had a feelingabout this but didnt know how to describe

ffrookie6 (11:47:38 PM): but you..you just spoke the truth

LuciferAkira (11:49:17 PM): I just speak honestly, that's kind of a quirk of mine. I only speak deceptively if I want to make a profit.

ffrookie6 (11:49:25 PM): aha

ffrookie6 (11:49:38 PM): i speak deceptively..because...hmm i dont know..maybe other's sensitivity?

ffrookie6 (11:49:43 PM): i should stop sugar coating

LuciferAkira (11:52:05 PM): Probably because you're an NF. If it feels unnatural and forced then switch gears to find a way to express things naturally.

ffrookie6 (11:52:16 PM): hmm

ffrookie6 (11:52:24 PM): no it feels natural to blurt it all out

ffrookie6 (11:52:29 PM): but I've got to play it smart

ffrookie6 (11:52:31 PM): maybe thats why

ffrookie6 (11:52:39 PM): confidentiality and what not

LuciferAkira (11:52:48 PM): Thinking and grammar checking doesn't hurt either.

ffrookie6 (11:52:59 PM): hmm yeah

ffrookie6 (11:53:13 PM): but most of the time my entries are just what I thought up of due to my impulsive thots

ffrookie6 (11:53:21 PM): and soo i dont publish a neat article like thing

ffrookie6 (11:53:22 PM): as you do

LuciferAkira (11:54:17 PM): I keep all of my impulsiveness in my notebook

LuciferAkira (11:54:22 PM): I flesh them out in my blog

ffrookie6 (11:54:24 PM): as do i

ffrookie6 (11:54:37 PM): and yet my impulsiveness

ffrookie6 (11:54:40 PM): are sometimes short

ffrookie6 (11:54:42 PM): too short

ffrookie6 (11:54:49 PM): to be made into a clear article entry

LuciferAkira (11:55:00 PM): Then don't write a bunch of paragraphs

LuciferAkira (11:55:03 PM): write a line

ffrookie6 (11:55:15 PM): and then several secodns later i get hit with another one either irrelevent or not

LuciferAkira (11:55:58 PM): One succinct line is better than a bunch of indecipherable sentences.

ffrookie6 (11:56:07 PM): true

ffrookie6 (11:56:09 PM): heh

ffrookie6 (11:56:09 PM): well

ffrookie6 (11:56:19 PM): maybe i needed to just brain dump

ffrookie6 (11:56:22 PM): to get it down at least

LuciferAkira (11:56:25 PM): Rule of Comedy: Build up, build up, punchline.

ffrookie6 (11:56:25 PM): cause i may forget

ffrookie6 (11:56:32 PM): ohh?

LuciferAkira (11:56:32 PM): Best jokes are kept short

ffrookie6 (11:56:49 PM): speakin of comedy

ffrookie6 (11:56:56 PM): i watched the gong show during Fanime

LuciferAkira (11:56:58 PM): If possible make every line a punchline.

ffrookie6 (11:57:17 PM): yes I went to Fanime, it was..freaky...but cool cause of Dead Fantasy and Haloid

ffrookie6 (11:57:23 PM): there was also hentai hour

ffrookie6 (11:57:26 PM): at 12 am

LuciferAkira (11:57:31 PM): Wtf

ffrookie6 (11:57:32 PM): but i wasnt 18 and had to leave at 1

ffrookie6 (11:57:35 PM): am

LuciferAkira (11:57:35 PM): That sounds gross

ffrookie6 (11:57:37 PM): LOL

ffrookie6 (11:57:41 PM): i know

LuciferAkira (11:58:07 PM): "Hentai hour" should be kept at home

ffrookie6 (11:58:15 PM): Haloid http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cL-mR79GErU

LuciferAkira (11:58:16 PM): with your ten sex slaves

ffrookie6 (11:58:21 PM): watch it, its FSCKING AWESOME

ffrookie6 (11:58:24 PM): i mean FUCK

ffrookie6 (11:58:25 PM): ING

ffrookie6 (11:58:29 PM): xD

LuciferAkira (11:58:46 PM): You'll get the hang of it in time'

ffrookie6 (11:58:52 PM): Nothings better than Samus versus Spartan

ffrookie6 (11:58:57 PM): from Halo 3 and Metriod Prime

ffrookie6 (11:59:31 PM): well maybe Dead Fantasy's Tifa, Yuna, and Rikku versus Ayane, Kasumi, and Harumi

ffrookie6 (12:00:15 AM): k i got it

LuciferAkira (12:01:04 AM): lol nice

ffrookie6 (12:01:09 AM): keep watchin..

ffrookie6 (12:01:21 AM): and then search up dead fantasy 1 and 2

LuciferAkira (12:01:54 AM): Analyzing... Me: Analyzing WHAT? .....MASSIVE

ffrookie6 (12:02:14 AM): LOL

ffrookie6 (12:08:06 AM): hows it so far?

LuciferAkira (12:08:14 AM): Lesbian sex.

ffrookie6 (12:08:31 AM): yeah kinda wierd how the spartan orgasmed when he saw samus in her other suit

ffrookie6 (12:08:44 AM): and then in teh end its a girl

ffrookie6 (12:08:45 AM): xD

LuciferAkira (12:10:07 AM): Meh, I just thought it was a boner or premature ejaculation

LuciferAkira (12:10:11 AM): but women makes more sense

LuciferAkira (12:10:26 AM): more fluid would cause an electric discharge

ffrookie6 (12:11:13 AM): LOL

ffrookie6 (12:11:13 AM): LOL

ffrookie6 (12:12:30 AM): btw MW2 trailers out

ffrookie6 (12:12:32 AM): looks more intense

LuciferAkira (12:15:42 AM): http://forums.intpcentral.com/showpost.php?p=1119982&postcount=1

LuciferAkira (12:17:20 AM): That was the best post I've read in ages. Didn't make any sense whatsoever though.

ffrookie6 (12:19:11 AM): i dont get it eithery

From now on, I'll be explicit...enough..will you?

F****

For some reason I have such a rage against Mal! WHY!? WHY!? I dont get it! So much rage that billows within me that I feel like I must Pound his very essence to the ground, to fsckin' dust!

aargh!! Perhaps I have had it with the annoyance. It makes me feel sick. The man who hath Judged better be quick to be Judged.. and they say I was the nosy one...

*sighs* Lo and behold the violator, the descrecrator, and the tempter are all in one! Such a nice combination against a Chaotic, Neutral, and Lawful good.

My thoughts are becoming erratic again, this is not good, the truth sometimes hurts, but it has to be done so there won't be a next time...

A Lesson

Never confess your sins to the wrong person...

better yet, never confess your heart to the wrong person..

Some thoughts

I have been finally able to confirm that the blog wars DID commenced, but it's not safe to say that it is over.

Mal Yont's finally revealed his secret weapon, codenamed: Linong Xhing, or Topsglob for short. And also it is confirmed that it is indeed his...BUT who cares?

I've finally gotten this out of my system. I was a fool. And it may have costed friendship, but I guess it was worth it. Foolishness, Foolishness...

And now, I move on. My heart has already been shattered way before all this Drama Dama has happened, so there's no harm done.

what else was there...

hmm, I realize that I rationalize more than I realized. Yep. Emotions+Logic mix. And I mean that hysterically. One minute full of emotions, the next judging yourself, but if you step back and see how Mal sees it, It makes perfect sense! Behold the even bigger scope of the foolishness and uselessness of mankind's needs and thoughts! It is such a new exhilarating point view and yet it makes me embarrassed. Oh well, God knows us more than we do, therefore, why should we be embarrassed? Just keep in good faith.

Read me like a book.

post?

It's been awhile since my last post. I don't know how many have read it..but I hope I got the message out. There are still many more things to do but it may not involve them...

I have been invited to the Night of Honors thing, don't know much about it.

My thoughts are quiet now, not raging vehemently like the weeks before. I feel calm now. More subtle, but just as tired.

I am not happy..

I may have gotten the 1tb at FRYS for 90 dollars and I got excited for a bit, until I started remembering my refgrets. Oh the Horrible Regrets!

I am NOT HAPPY, maybe just apathetic, but not content with the current situation.

Sure, I may have done her wrong, in fact I really did. She didn't deserve this. Am I a bad person? Or was I so caught up in the moment? I was reckless...I was betrayed..This time I'll never let it happen again.

Never hold onto too many secrets and burdens than you can handle, otherwise foolishness and ignorance will teach you a horrible lesson, one that costs friendships. Never trust anyone with your heart, and your secrets, and especially other's secrets.

And another thing, I am tired of dealing with these "Drama Damas". I am Tired! Sick! And just to make it worse, I cannot reconcile because it is nearly "impossible" due to their "mindsets".

I am sorry Eisoj, I'll let it go now, you seem so much more fun and lively when you dont ostracize me. Now just officially forgive me and everything will be alright. And no, this is reconciliation so I mean no harm. In fact, I mean no harm to anyone.

I am sorry Tony. ( fill in blank here)

I am sorry Dancer. I went too far and well it's MY mistake. Never dig up broken hearts~

and of course...Koranma, I am truly sorry, I know you wont forgive me for years to come, but I am DONE with this "Drama Dama". PERIOD. Never again, will I do that again.

It's the end of the year now and I don't want all of us to keep fighting or having malice and animosity towards each other. It's OVER. Let us see the truth and reconciliation that we all can do, especially me. I want Peace. I want Friendship. And I want benevolence.

In other words, I am lettin' it all go~ and I hope in time things will come to let go as well.

Wish List Items

Everyone wants something since humans are materialistic, but for me, I try not to..and soo I made a list with the most pragmatic reasons:

Sporty Earphones ( to run without them falling off in quality and movement)

A better MP3 player, sporty kind preferred, or with sporty case.

An external Hard Disk Drive to store and backup data.

A 120 gb hdd for the 360 to store DLC and games.

and I guess that is all really for right now :/