I am a shell..

I am a shell..

That emotions, issues, thoughts, and peace can go through.

I am generally blank or empty within my mind.
I keep myself clearheaded as much as I can.
I keep myself as happy and calm as I can.
But when rage, anger, sadness, and emotion arises
I cannot handle myself. It just comes in and stay,
Stay, Stay, for a while, and then it just leaves.
Whether it leaves, by my own choice, or by time,
Is up to what has been "inputted" in me.
To Hold or to Release. To Push or to Obey.
To Apologize or to Ignore.
To Cry or to Die.
To Do or not to Do.


I basically wrote this when I figured out how I handled my anger.
I hold things in especially emotions or acts of violence/emotions right away when I see it.
My mind, emotion, and body are brimming with the fire, energy, and intensity.
I usually hold it until i can send it right back because of an "impulse" or I can just eat it down and suffer, hurting myself so that I don't hurt others. But really, it all depends on what happens and I don't like hurting or killing people ( which is why I try not to HATE but only to DISLIKE people).